Eating Your Past

By Kamina Kapow

The skeletons in your closet. The hidden thoughts and journals and events that makes you the perfectly imperfect human you are today. Battling with the leftover feels of the past is something of a daily occurrence for some people. Fears holding you back. Doubts in yourself and what you’re capable of. Worries over people treating you badly or ignoring you. All tying you to something that isn’t happening anymore.

The skeletons in your closet are going to keep nagging at you until you take care of them. Bring them out. Dust them off. Inspect them. Submerse yourself in the feelings you get from them. Have tea with them. Write down everything you can remember from each of them, then burn the paper. Let the wind blow your past away. Put all your bad memories, thoughts, and feelings into your food as you make it. And when your teeth tear into it, imagine you literally eating your past. If you can’t get rid of everything, periodically invite them back over, wine and dine them until they blend seamlessly with you and no longer try and hold you back.

Your past is a valid part of who you are. I’m not saying to forget your past, unless that’s what you’re wanting, but to learn from it so it can’t control you in your present and future.